cross your fingers

i am sitting at work while i type this waiting to hear whether or not i got the apartment i want... i better have since i need to move out of mine this weekend. i already have the movers all set up to come by on sunday. it would just be so nice if this worked out since everything else is falling into place. i met a really nice guy who we'll call m. he's adorably cute and has the greatest sense of humor (just like mine!) he can cook and has excellent taste (i mean he is dating me). work is going better day by day, still a bit stressfull but loads better than it used to be. i just really want this apartment to work out so i can have a place to live!

so back to what y'all are really interested in: m. we've only been out 4 times, but i don't know what it is i feel like i've known him for years, it's nice. we can just sit and cuddle and watch tv or not watch tv haha. i just don't want to put any pressure onto anything. i've noticed i am overly ananlytical and have found myslef running as many possible scenerios in my head as possible... and it needs to stop. i usually go with the flow, i just don't know what's going on inside my head right now. i think, no, i know there is some guilt that i am dating too soon after my last relationship. but i'm also not the kind of person for one night stands and random sex. i don't want that. i want someone i can talk to and hang out with and be myself and have fun and i can do this with m. and really is it all that bad that i found someone this quick, in all reality, no. i need to be happy right? yes.

so anyways, keep your fingers crossed, because if i get this place we'll be having a blogger party there soon! and hopefully y'all will get to meet m!

go go banana out!