the biggest loser

i didn't see the finale, but i did see a couple of the episodes and what the contestants on the show acheived was amazing, they look like completely different people! so where do i sign up so i can take like 3 months off of work and just work out and eat right w/ a personal trainer? of course it's easy to lose weight when that's all you can focus on. so while i'm happy for them i'm also a bit jealous... i wanna have ripped arms like the guys ended up having at the end of the show, but i don't have the time to spend all day in the gym... pay for a personal trainer and chef to make sure i work out and eat right.

not that this is stopping me form continue to do what i'm doing... but i am considering looking into joining a gym so i can work out on the weekends (as the company gym is only open during the week) that and the gym closes at 8 so i can't always make it there. i'm thinking about 24 hour fitness... plus they have the biggest loser program and they have personal trainers and such so i would probably see results quicker. the work gym has trainers but they really just give you something to follow, it would be nice to have someone there making sure you do it right and pushing you.

and if you hven't already you must check out tower records going out of business sale... i got 27 cds for like 50 bucks. awesome!

up in the gym just workin' on my fitness

i don't care what ml says, i love fergie's new song! :)

i have gained 17lbs.

not ok.

so i have re-signed up with weight watchers (did so last week) and have already lost 4 pounds! woo! i'll be back in my "skinny" jeans soon! a big part that has helped is ka and vita g's after work workouts, we've been kickin ass! last night i burned like 1300 calories. so i'm working out super hard and determined to actually be in shape by my birthday in february. it's my present to myself!

i also realized i had 6 days of vacation left that i needed to use up so 4 day weekend! yay! and tomorrow tori spelling is having a yard sale and mr and i are totally thinking of going. i loves me some spelling. i really miss her show so notorious, it was so hilarious.

speaking of shows, who's watching heroes? and if you're not you should be! and this season of veronica mars has been heaven, oh how i'll miss my weekly dose of some good vm while we wait for the new episodes to begin up in january. and if you haven't checked out 30 rock you need to that tina fey rocks. i heart her.

and if you haven't seen this music video from an episode of how i met your mother you truly are not living:

hilariousness

no autographs please...

yes, this is me in television debut... thanks to mr for making this all possible! ;)



go go famous banana

it sticks to your paaaanties

ppms or psuedo pms... to which i have kq to thank for... thanks... i attribute ppms to my irritability yesterday morning, i almost yelled at someone in the cafeteria for being in my way. i did feel much better after consuming some food, but man i hate the bloated feeling... but thankfully i don't need to use one of these (see video below). i know that this should not be funny...but it is. especially when your boyfriend makes it into a song, if yor're lucky i'll post it w/ my next update! okay off to hell we go!:



go go bloody banana... ewwwwwwww! haha

love actually

so this is what it feels like... coolness. it really is indescribeable. in dating i always hoped it would move into something more than dating, but you don't know for sure if the other person feels the same way or your kinda like well if he wants to move in that direcion i'll go along and see what happens. but w/ mr i know he feels exactly the same way i do. i had made a mixed cd for him and so he returned the favor... his was far superior as he actually mixed the songs together (how fancy!). when i got to his place he said that before he gave the cd to me he wanted to tell me something (i totally knew what he was going to say, since i was feeling the same way). he fumbled his words a bit and apologized for that and said he had rehearsed what he was going to say like 3 times before i got there (how cute is that). he told me that he's never felt like this before and that he has never been so happy with someone (especially this quickly) which led up to the grand finale of him telling me that he loved me... i cried a little it was so sweet and of course i told him i loved him too. it's weird, but in a good way weird how much i feel like i've known him forever. i feel like not only can we be partners but best friends. it's something i haven't felt before. i think he might be the one. crazy, i know. but i do! and to top it all off he is amazing in bed... seriously. amazing. omg. i have to give an example, those who are squeamish of tmi do not read on...

so last night i went to his place for dinner, we went out and when we got back were watching tv and went to have some dessert (wink wink) now we've had dessert before and it's been real good. but last night mr gave g 2 helpings... w/ in a minute. i have never had that before... it was awesome. who knew i was multi-dessertic... i'm still in awe.

and on that note... i'm off to the gym i want to be in shape for my man... haha that sounds so lame.

-go go satisfied banana

myspace: the new cupid

yes, i met mr (the new boy) on myspace of all places. he emailed me about his like for the same music and such. i've gotten similar emails before and sometimes respond though they usually ended up going nowhere. but this time the guy was really cute and his profile was really funny (if you're on myspace you can check my profile and find him (the picture below is his profile pic... how cute is that?)). we emailed back and forth for a week and then got together and really hit it off. we eneded up seeing eachother twice that weekend and then spending sat night and sunday together at coachella. and i even went over to his place on monday and we had dinner and talked for hours, it was great. he is coming over this weekend and we are pretty much spending the entire weekend together. i can't wait to see him tonight, it feels like it's been forever.

and yes, you'll have to meet him soon... not sure when though. though i think the two of us will be in long beach on the 20th for pride... wanna hang w/ us ml :).

head over heels for reals

the banana has found himself a mcdreamy!



i can't begin to describe how much fun we have together, finally a guy who isn't afraid to say "i like you" and wants to see what will develop between us. it's so refreshing... and he's absolutely adorable to boot! (as you can see above) he's funny and sweet and genuine and complimentary and everything i could hope for. i keep pinching myself to make sure it's real.

i want to write more... but gotta head to the gym, i'll update more laters... it's how i keep you coming back for more!

-go go super happy banana

dirty boy

yeah so i went to drop of some stuff to mb last night (some shirts that are too big for me, a mix cd since we love the same type of music and share our new finds and a little gift since he had a back week last week) and we ended up making out and fooling around a bit... which including fooling around in his building's laundry room... i've never felt so dirty in a place of clean *devilish grin*. i have no idea what this means, but it was fun. i just don't want to lose him as a friend because we have such a great time together and he's so much fun to hang out with. we haven't really talked about it, so we'll see. well i gotta hit the gym, the banana will be ripped by june (or at leats better be), so i gotta make sure i work out as much as possible.

go go off to the gym banana

shirt tales

making shirts is fun! i made this one and another (pic to come soon).

it's funny cause it's true!



cause i can't and i won't and i don't unnhhh!

i'm punk!

go go t-shirt making banana

i'm so vain

ok, i'm sorry, but i think i look totally cute in this picture. sure my arm looks a bit flabby, but i'm working on that (it's already a vast improvement over what it once was. and kq and ka will attest to my kick ass "guns" hahaha!) and yes, that is pdp on the left. this is from the night out a couple weeks ago. the club has a photographer walking around snapping pics and then they post them on the website, it's pretty cool! especially since they take pics of their extremely (well a couple of them) hot go-go dancers!

ok that's it, just a little vanity, especially since today in an abd.

go go i'm really not this vain banana

red dress

so the club was a blast! of course, it was a sugababes theme night for the release of the single red dress. it is huge and has a great layout, they play the music videos on these huge screens (totally wanna go back), plus no one robbed me! yay! thankfully jp agreed to go w/ me and her friend c from san diego (sdc) came along too. we get there and pdp is already there w/ one of his lady friends. we get somethign to drink and talk w/ them for a while. then it's time to hit the dance floor. we follow pdp and his friend down, but we get lost from them, but i was like whatever. so i danced w/ jp and sdc and while i was hoping to end up dancing w/ some guy i ended up beating the guys off of jp and sdc w/ a stick. and yes, this is a homo club, but the breeder boys were out in full force. all of the suddin pdp pops up and is dancing by me so i try to stealthly dance w/ him and he just moves away... then moves back and i try again and he moves away... and eventually we get separated by the crown. then we go upstairs and outside for some air/water. we go back in and find pdp and his friend upstairs and talk some more. then i go down to dance w/ pdp and his friend and pdp is pretty trashed at this point so i just kinda danced w/ his friend while did his own thing. pdp leaves and jp and sdc come down and we dance for a while, give the cute go go dancer some money (he was sooo hot) and then head home for the night. so, i didn't meet anyone and still have no idea about pdp (jp couldn't tell either, cause at times it seemed like he was flirting, she was confused as well). but overall it was a really good night, it was nice to go out. yes, i need to work on talking to strangers at a club, i've just never done it before and i'm not quite sure what to do. it's a lot easier to just email someone and not hear from them than to be rejected in public!


so all in all a good night. this weekend was pretty good as well! finally i was able to clean my apartment, it's so nice to have a clean place again!

and in boy news, not to jinx it or anything i have been talking to this other guy from match, so we'll see how that goes!

go go busy banana

push the button

i talked w/ my co-worker jp this morn and she was looking for something to do while her friend is in town so i'm totally going. i'm going to "push the button" for life, if you will (push the button is a sugababes song for those who don't know) ml also made an excellent point, i do need to say YES to life. i have nothing to lose by going. so what if he didn't invite me for the reasons i want, i could meet someone tonight! or not, but it doesn't matter, i know i'll have fun w/jp and her friend either way.

ml i totally feel like i'm in that episode of friends where rachel lets monica make all of her decisions, haha. so what should i wear tonight :). thanks for your help, it is greatly appreciated.

go go get your groove on banana!

oooo fancy!

check out my new favorite songs list over to the right, fancy no?

it's from this really cool site www.pandora.com that takes musicians and song you like and finds more music like it. it's quite fun. of course it takes it a little while to get the hang of it, but the more musicians and songs you put in the better it gets. i'm already making a list of new cds i want! so now you'll be able to see what music i'm enjoying (cause i know it's been such a concern of all of yours) and even listen to a sample (when you click on the artist or go to see my entire list). there's some good stuff there, check it out!

ok more pdp news. i talked to him online last night. after he had emailed in response to emailing out the pandora site above to people. in his email he mentioned that a club in weho is doing a sugababes (love them!) night tonight. and i can't tell if he was just informing me since he knows i like them or if he wanted me to show up because he's going to be there. i tried to get that from him, but couldn't tell. so the real question is do i go to tonight or not? part of me wants to go, but i'll feel really lame going by myself. the other part of me is like don't go you'll just set yourself up for something bad (what i don't know). that and i have a really early morning tomorrow (in fact i should really be working instead of writing about this, hmmm priorities, haha) for work and we all know i can barely make it in on time as in and i need to be here at least 20 min earlier tomorrow.

go go in a pickle banana

p.s. finally, on american idol chiken little was sent home. he should have gone home last week because melissa mcgee should still be there.

homo hoodlims

yes, so this weekend was not the great weekend i was hoping iot to be. ok fine, the date turned out to lead no where, no big thing. sat morn and afternoon were good, pilates and then lunch w/ mb and the evening started out well enough at the abbey we had drinks, we laughed. mb was there, said hi. made a new friend, we'll call her armani j, since she works at the armani on 3rd street. on our way to rage i even saw ck (the date from friday) and we said hi as well. it was all downhill after that. in part it is my fault, i had too much to drink, but i didn't expect one of my own people to steal my wallet and my phone. just when you think the world isn't such a bad place, you get smacked right upside the head. and of course there were lots of other things that happend that night that i don't remember, luckily vita twin and sven were looking after me to make sure i didn't do anything too crazy (because seriously i almost did some stupid shit). they also helped me home as i really wasn't in the greatest condition, not a proud night for me and we'll see if i ever drink again. so of course i made a few offerings to the porcelain god, but to top it off i got food poisoning so i couldn't even keep water down the next day... ugh. i canceled my atm card and credit card, had my phone shut off and ordered replacement cards so i could actually have money at some point (the asswipe got about 50 bucks as well). and just today i went and filled out all the stuff to get a new license which will now be here in 2-8 weeks (that's kinda a big gap don't you think). got a new cell phone and luckily i had written down all my phone numbers a couple weeks ago, phew! and now i need to go fill out a police report about my stolen license, it's just such a hassle while this person isn't worrying about anything. life lesson, don't be so trustfull of others. that and i hate myself for being as stupid as i was to drink that much. i am very disappointed in the banana. and in other ways it's good that i'e had this lesson so i am twice as careful from now on, just sucks that i had to go through it.

in other less depressing news (sorry for the downer, but life isn't all fun): pdp and i haven't spoken in about 2 weeks, but i just got an invite to his b-day party. i rsvp'd, but i really don't want to go to it alone because i need someone there to keep me in check around him. because for like the 3rd night in a row i've had a dream about him. let's just say it's a very enjoyable dream that's only making me set myself up for disaster. why is it that some people just get stuck in your head and won't get out? it would be fine if there was something going on between us, but there isn't so it's torture.

and of course my place is a mess and i get home and i just can't deal with it, gah. luckily tonight is tito's taco night along w/ the amazing race! woo! at least there's still tv (i love you tv).

go go welcomed to the real world banana

i'm such a great guy, but...

ahh, it's the line i'm doomed to hear after every date i go on apparently.

so it's "just friends" for me and the guy from friday, whatever, like i'll ever hear from him again. oh well, such is life. vita twin sven and i are celebrating st. patty's tonight so i'll be getting my drink on and all my worries will just disappear, haha!

i do want to wish the best of luck to y in her marathon tomorrow, pump those crazy legs!

go go buzzed banana.

green w/ envy

i have a date for st. patty's day!

that's all just wanted to share, and gloat, and rub it in just a little, haha!

go go back in the game banana

homo says what?

an interesting article i thought i'd share:

on the study of homosexuality:

http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2006/03/09/60minutes/main1385230.shtml


go go (only had a 2% chance of being gay, phew i lucked out didn't i!) banana

pitty parties over, get the hell out.

people, we have a taker, i got a reply!

i knew all it would take is me being completely over dramatic about the whole situation, haha take that relationship gods, i win! boo ya!

go go happy banana!

i'm throwing myself a pitty party and you're invited

i'll start this post off w/ a pic i took of the rain on my sunroof, i just thought it looked so pretty.


and now let's ponder the question, why are boys stupid? there is no answer they just are.

i don't get it, i have sent emails to like 10 guys earlier this week on match/yahoo and not a single thing. wtf? no, serioulsy, WTF! i don't know if it's my profile text, something there that turns guys away? i thought it was fun and straight forward or is it just me, once they see my pic they're like hell no. i feel like all this weight i lost, all this working out is getting me nothing. i guess i just thought that once i was thin meeting guys would be easier, apparently i'm still not thin/cut enough to make it in the gay world.

i also wish i didn't have to rely on online dating so much, but it's not like i really want to hang out in weho every weekend and even when i do want to go i don't want to go by myself. thankfully vita twin, sven and jr will usually come. but still, i don't meet anyone. and every guy hits on or talks to sven, it's not fair, i can't compete w/ him. i hate feeling unattractive, working out, losing weight was supposed to make me feel better, not worse. so i've been cranky lately and i hate it and i don't know what to do to get outta the slump. if only i were straight, i can get girls to like, but that's probably only because i'm gay. ah lfe is a vicious and cruel joke.

and someone please tell me why i can't get stupid pdp out of my head, get out, GET OUT!

go go oh who cares.

best. card. ever.

they say a picture speaks a thousand words... and all of these are said w/ a lisp, haha! i love this card!



go go gaytor! banana (now w/ improved thrusting action!)

you like me, you really like me... but guys don't

this weekend i got to meet a fan! hi utah! it was a pleasure meeting you! sorry, but i won't be visiting you and the polygamists in utah. it was so much hanging out with everyone, what a great night. it's always so much fun to laugh the entire time you are out.

and i have a pic to share w/ everyone, here is a group shot of the night out at kathy griffin for vitamin g and vita twin's b-day. and you can see both mb and pdp in this shot! so from l to r it's

jp, mn, sven, ss (in the glasses), jr, vita twin, mb, vitamin, ms, quanton (down in front) pdp and jd.



and in other news, i have the most unattractive people winking/emailing me on match. and the ones i find attractive/funny will look at my profile after i email them, but i never hear anything. wtf. seriously why does this have to be so hard? it's not fair, where am i supposed to go to meet guys, weho, i know, but it's weird there trying to meet guys most of them are just lookinng to hook up. you straight girls have it easy. at least you can go up to guys in a bar and if he turns out to be gay, no big thing... i do that and i could risk getting my ass kicked. i've even resorted to myspace and i can't get a guy to respond... it's like i'm trying to sell them explosive diarrhea. just when you start to feel attractive then this shit happens and you feel like the person you used to to be, all insecure and unsure of yourself and i totally hate that. but i'm using it as fuel to get myself to the gym so i don't become that person again. unfortunately we gays may be fun, but we are really shallow and judgemental (yet another reason to love us!) and if i want a good looking guy i'm going to have to get the body of a greek god! haha, it's funny cause it's true.

go go gym-bound banana

celebs are ugly too

you must check out this website where you can see celebs before and after their photos are retouched, it's a real confidence builder! go to their portfolio and then when looking at a photo you'll need to click and hold on the "click here". enjoy! (a new post to come soon... as i have received several in person requests for more and who am i do deny my fans!)

http://www.fluideffect.com

go go gonna retouch every photo i have banana!

the talented mr. banana

i know, i know, sorry for the long pause between blogs, but whattya going to do?

so there's a lot to catch up on so i'll get right to it:

let's see, mb (formerly just m, but the single letter was eventually going to get very confusion w/ the way things are going...) and i are friends now. we've talked and gone out, he's a really nice guy so i'm glad we are adult enough to be friends.

new years was effin crazy, i was in a 3 way kiss... w/ two guys that i don't even know their names, nor do i really care. after looking photos they were really just "club lighting cute" not so much once they got a flash on them, oh well, it was fun!

pdp who i'm not sure i've mentioned is the latest guy to enter into my life. he is really sweet, nice and has a great body for bonus points, it's just i never know where things stand between us. we were going out for about 3 weeks when i brought up that fact that while in bed vitamin wasn't getting any attention (none at all... pdp was the only passenger getting off in o-town...) and i was getting a bit frustrated he's a very good kisser and great at foreplay but seems to refuse to touch the region that is begging to be touched!. so they next day he says lets just be friends... whatever. so we do the friends thing for like a day. he came over watched a movie, we had dinner, it was nice. then over the weekend i go out and he meets up w/ me , vitatwin and sven, long story short he's in my bed in the morning. i know! i didn't ask him to come back with me, but i was glad that he did. of course, still no service for vitamin. so last saturday we go to the movies (underworld: evolution, excellent movie!) and he comes back to my place where we proceed to watch the falcuty and he scares the crap out of me during it. this is one of the things he does that i like, i enjoy being scared and he's really good at getting me at the perfect time. so then we are watching tv and bed and he makes the first move (i had told myself i would let him make the first move) and he does his very good job at kissing and rolling around, but then nothing, it's left up to me to please him. not that i don't enjoy getting my groove on down there, but it's w/ the understanding there will be reciprocation. so he wasn't and i stopped and feigned being tired. but he next morning he got me all riled up again and i couldn't help myself and once again, pdpgot a one way ticket to o-town while vitamin was left standing at the station.

now i think part of it has to do w/ the fact that he's never really been w/ someone before. he said he fooled around w/ a couple guys, but i'm starting to question that. he has also opened up a lot and tried things he hasn't done before. but at the same time he owns the joy of gay sex book...maybe he needs to re-read it. and a big part of is also, i'm good at what i do. now, not to toot my own horn (very dirty pun intended) but i've heard it from all 4 guys i've been w/. so as of now i'm scoring a 100%. so i'd like to think he is paralyzed from the pleasure, but at the same time, wouldn't you want to at least attempt to do the same? maybe he is worried he won't be good enough, which is fine, i'll teach him, i had to teach rr. really it's not that hard, well it should be hard, but it's not hard to do :P. however, the last time i talked to him i mentioned that he totally owes me, it hurt to eat the next day (i'm serious, my tongue has never hurt so much!) he said "noted" (this was on aim, you, know cause we're in college, right) so next time we get together he doesn't get anything until vitamin gets his first.

i feel like i'm leaving a ton out, which i'm sure i am. but i'm at work and i'm distracted by the things i need to do here. oh there was another guy in there somewhere jbw he was fun, at least he touched me, but i don't think it's going to go anywhere. oh well.

and it's been a long time since i've given a song so howabout 4ever by the veronicas, it's a catchy little tune!

if i think of more i'll post later tonight, but hopefully this will wet your appetite. and ignore all the mistakes, i don't have time to go back a re-read, so hopefully it is somewhat comprehendable.

-go go sexually deprived banana (haha!)